Imagines...

Sean Matthew

Imagine finding out you are pregnant at the age of 19 while being on the pill.
Imagine that you are not married and you are un sure if your boyfriend is going to let you do this alone.
Imagine that you went to a stress free job where you sit around all day hand sewing, and finding out that your stress free job probbaly caused you to go into pre-term labor because there was too much pressure do to sitting around all day.
Imagine everything is going just fine until Monday September 11, 2007 when you came home from work and had slight back pain.
Imagine thinking its nothin and going to the bathroom only to find that when you wiped it was clear, again not worrying.
Imagine calling your doctor to say you have a slight cramp in your back and being told to go straight to the hosptal.
Imagine by the time you drove 15 minutes to the hospital your contractions were 3 minutes apart and growing stronger each time.
Imagine this 20 year old kid staying by you the entire time, and watching the tears well up in his eyes because he really does love you.
Imagine watching him be scared to death wondering if you are going to mke it, and you yourself wondering the same thing so you can not console him.
Imagine sleeping in labor and delivery wondering if you can hold off giving birth because they want to keep you here for atleast the next 7 weeks!!!!
Imagine that for four days they try to stop your labor and being so doped up on mag.sulf. that you can no longer see.
Imagine recieving shots to help your babies lungs mature so he has a better fighting chance.
Imagine the doctors making no promises.
Imagine that its now day three and they have to check your blood every few hours to check the mag levels but your arms are not giving anymore blood and you are so black and blue that they cant find the veins.
Imagine that thye cant get the blood from your feet either.
Imagine that after three days of not eating anything, they finally send you to a room and give you a sandwich.
Imagine that night you get worse and the next afternoon you are forced to deliver your 2lb. 12oz. baby boy naturally.
Imagine them holding him up for two second so you can see him and them wisking him away to the nicu.
Imagine not knowing what is going on and being told you can not see your baby until they say so.
Imagine hours going by not knowing if he's ok.
Imagine not being able to hold him for two weeks.
Imagine the nicu staff telling you he will  need atleast two transfusions and he will probably contract something while he's in the hospital and expect it to be a very bumpy ride.
Imagine going to the hospital alone everyday and with your boyfriend at night, still not knowing if he's going to leave you.
Imagine that your baby sometimes forgets to breathe and he needs medicine to help him remember.
Imagine being told you can take home your 4lb 9oz baby boy and then gettign to the hospital and having them tell you they want to keep him a little longer.
Imagine sobbing uncontrollably only for them to tell you to come back at 5pm to take him home.
Imagine the nicu driving you insane!
Imagine taking home your 4lb 9oz baby boy in the pouring rain on October 26, 2007 when they told you he wouldnt be home until christmas.
Imagine your baby having ROP and the retina specialist telling you he may need laser surgery.
Imagine that 4 weeks later the ROP has Disappeared!!
Imagine holding your ***8lb*** baby boy 2 3/4 months old (3 days corrected) and having him smile at you.
Imagine knowing that your boyfriend, who is now your fiance, will be marrying you on January 13th, and knowing that your baby boy is happy and healthy and now you have the perfect family.

Thank you,

Kelly.. Proud mother to Sean Matthew